I wonder if she will remember this year of her life when she grows up- her tiny body curled up against mine nursing and napping on repeat, all day, everyday. I wonder if she remembers that early morning nursing session when she woke up and her sleepy eyes looked straight into mine and smiled for the very first time. I wonder if she will miss sleeping in the embrace of my iron clad arms. (At one point I was convinced that I will need an arm replacement surgery!) I wonder if the bags under my eyes will remind her of the time she kept me up all night, wanting to nurse and refusing to sleep. I wonder if she will ever truly understand how I have dedicated every ounce of my existence to help her thrive. I wonder if she will ever realize what a powerful and an overwhelmingly beautiful influence she has been in my life.
Well, there is a good chance she won’t remember any of it. Heck, there is a good chance even I won’t remember all of it. But you know what, it doesn’t matter. If anything, the very core of our relationship has been built on the incredible experiences we have shared together. And to say that nursing her was in some way or another an indispensable part of every one of our adventures these last twelve months would be an understatement. Nursing for me is not a thing that I accomplished but a feeling. An indescribable feeling of love that my daughter and I will carry in our hearts forever that our minds will soon forget. Sigh.
Mihira, my little love, your dad and I love you more than we are willing to admit. We are absolutely thrilled to have you in our lives and so dang proud of every little thing you have accomplished this year. We adore your feisty personality and beyond excited to watch you grow.
Happy first birthday baby!
Last week was a blast! Best week in November. And guess what, we road tripped all the way to Canada. How cool is that?! Truth be told, it only takes a couple of hours to get to Canada from here so it didn’t even feel like we were in a different country after all. We spent five days in Vancouver, BC. We were given a room on the 27th floor (yeah 27th, freaky co-incidence?) so the view from the balcony was pretty spectacular.
Hello breakfast buddy!
I miss waking up to this view already.
My birthday evening
So, anyone wanna learn how to lace a bow?
Delicious christmas birthday cake!
… and he ate most of MY birthday cake. I shall avenge soon!
I love these golden leaves, they look so melodramatic.
I can bet nothing’s cuter than a feeding black squirrel.
The beautiful Stanley Park.
The birthday girl getting ready to pose :-)
The jump was a big flop, but I had so much fun just jumping around like a demented tourist.
Does anyone else think these look like dream catchers?
The famous Capilano bridge.
I LOVE this!
…sucks! It’s a reminder that I’m getting close to 30 and I don’t like 30 very much! I was 18 just yesterday, and this is not fair to me!
Okay, I’m kiddin’. I’ve made my peace with the fact that I can’t stop time.
Right now, I’m watching grey clouds hover over tall buildings, letting the Sun play hide and seek behind them. And a handful of golden yellow maple trees in every street. It’s beautiful, really.
We’ve celebrated 14 of your 28 birthdays together. You know, that does make us seem like an old couple? Since we’ve been a real couple only for the last 6 years, your friendship reigns your love by 2 years. Okay, why am I talking about us being a couple again?? This was supposed to be your birthday post and I was not supposed to talk about myself! Bah, had I mustered a brave core and gotten two good sentences out of my mouth without crying an ocean yesterday, we could’ve averted this nullity altogether. Right?
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